I don't think it's any coincidence that the 4th grade Bible lesson I had to teach this week was about Heaven...what it's like, who's there, how wonderful it is..etc.. I got to only teach about Heaven and all it's brilliance, but my grandfather...(we just like to call him "Pa,") got to go there! Receiving an email in class on Monday saying he suffered a massive heart attack, was really hard. Again, it's not hard to be here, it's hard not being there. I just wanted to give Grandma and big hug and tell her I love her and Momma too. I wanted to be there with everyone else, in their house, with that old familiar smell of mothballs and fire and whatever Grandma is cooking. But I'm so thankful for friends here and amazing technology that allowed me to talk to home just like I was sitting beside them. Hearing Grandma's voice telling me that she still had my Christmas present wrapped up downstairs...and then, of course, she had to tell me what it was. My grandma is the strongest Christian I know....so filled with inner strength, peace and joy. I know she is ok. But I still would have given anything to just give her a hug. 8 weeks is too long. Sorry Grandma.
In class this week, we read in Scripture about the precious jewels in Heaven, it's light from the glory of God only, and it's beauty and radiance and brilliance. When I think about Pa, radiance and beauty just aren't words that come to my mind. I can't picture it. But I can picture him in Heaven in his only blue shirt, well-worn, with ink stains in the pockets, his hard-working hands wiping the sweat off his brow. Maybe one of Pa's treasures in Heaven will be a new, radiant blue shirt. No, he would probably refuse it. I'll miss seeing him sitting there on that same place on the couch...the poor old couch so worn down from his shape...seeing him in that blue shirt. For many years when I was younger, I really thought he only owned one shirt. But then one time when I was home from college, I was in his bedroom running on the treadmill and I felt better after seeing a couple of them draped over the chair.
I'll miss seeing all those old newspapers, receipts, and God knows what else piled up beside him on the couch. You know, all those important papers. I have so many great memories that I was thinking about this week. When I was younger, I remember reaching over him on the couch to his drawer where he hid his stash of Werther's Originals and orange slices. And asking him if I could have some. He usually carried some in that old ink stain pocket too. Then he would smile that sly grin, and give us grandkids whatever we wanted. :-) I'll miss calling from wherever in the world I was and heairng him say, "Nance, pick up the phone, it's Emily in Africa." Then he would try to get off real quick, and then I would have to tell him I wanna talk to you too Pa! Africa. Ok I think that's a place Pa would never want to travel to. I'm laughing cause I can hear him telling me now..."Why you wanna go back there? It's Africa." He used to tell me that. Haha. Gotta love Pa. I'll miss asking his advice about places. When I backpacked Europe, I brought him my map, and he helped me plan which countries to go see, and which ones are worth missing. I'll miss knocking on the front door, and seeing him in there on the couch, and having to knock a few more times before he stopped watching Nascar and came to let me in.
I have many fond memories of my grandpa....riding in the "Little Red car." (Yes, it's important enough to be a Proper noun.) He would take us down the road, all over the neighborhood. That little red car was the coolest thing ever. Not to mention his other fleet of cool old cars. I remember laughing at him when he tried to drown a snake in the well, then weeks later he found it still alive in there. I'll miss meals with him at Cracker Barrell, Arby's and especially K&W. Those chocolate pies he loved. I'll miss his mischevious smile that just made you laugh back at him. I'll miss Grandma getting tickled about something he would spout off about, and then me and grandma would have to go in another room and laugh quietly so he wouldn't hear us.
I'll miss arguing with him (or trying to) about important things, and not-so important things like whether purple carpet was a good idea for a rental house or who had the better biscuits...Golden Corral or Cracker Barrell. I'm pretty sure I get some (or all of) my stubborness and thriftiness from him. One of the neatest memories I will always smile about was last Christmas, he and "Nance" pulling mints on the side porch. He was a pro, and it made us all giggle. He tried to teach me, but I'm just not that coordinated. That was a fun night. I think one of the best images I have of Pa was poking with the fire on Christmas Eve. I can see him in his blue shirt, smell that smell of the basement, and the tree all lit up. Their basement is a magical place on Christmas Eve. The last Christmas I was home, we told Pa to put his arm around Grandma on the bench, and we all laughed. He did, and we got a great picture out of it. I'll miss watching Grandma open her Christmas present from Pa, and then Pa acting like he don't even know what it was. (He might not have!) :-)
I laugh when I think of him sitting through all our graduations from highschool. At least he sat through all the "G's" anyway. :-) But he would always complain about the people who would dance their way across the stage. He always could make us laugh. I have a great memory from 2 years ago when I was trying on two different bridesmaid dresses for a wedding. Grandma was gonna sew them up for me. And we decided to ask Pa which one looked better. I wore the one he pointed to from his blue couch. :-) Then, I tried on a black dress of Grandma's from the 50's, and Grandma whispered to me, "Go show Pa and ask him if he remembers this dress." So I stood in front of him and asked him if he remembered. And he just smiled that grin and said, "I don't think I remember that one." Then he looked at Nance and smiled. Grandma just giggled.
Ice cream. I have wonderful memories of climbing all over those big boxes in the back of the old Dairy Queen, and him telling us to get down before we hurt ourselves. It was a cardboard jungle gym. I miss that old wooden Dairy Queen, and its smells too. He used to give us the smooshed up Dilly Bars and Buster bars. (do they even still make those anymore?) We loved playing in the walk-in freezer, and I loved the banana ice cream. I remmeber him having to fix that machine like every week it seemed like. But there was nothing like that banana icecream. No one can make it like that anymore. I remember at one auction in Salisbury, Grandma told him I liked antique signs, so he bargained for a good half hour to get me an old RC Cola sign. Grandma said he was determined to win it. I remember all the things he used to do with his hands...make icecream cones, build baby cradles for us, bookshelves, work on cars, hold grandkids on his lap, grab us candy, fiddle with the toothpick in his mouth after K&W. His hands have really lived. And so did he! A great long life, full of love, happiness, and Nance for 62 years. He was a lucky man to have Nance.
When I was reading to my kids this week about Heaven...we read in Revelation about the river of the water of life flowing from the throne of God down the middle of the street. And the tree of life bearing 12 crops of fruit. I'd like to think that river flowed banana icecream this week, and the tree bore Dilly bars, and Buster bars. I think there's icecream in Heaven. There better be. But I know my Pa is there.